Hey ppl, i'll not be using this site anymore. Had been using tumblr all this while.
But from today, i'll be updating only in my new site which is http://christinelyt.blogspot.com/
Why the change? Because i find it more meaningful and *ehem*"professional"*ehem* to use my name instead of some words for the name of my blog. xD So, its that simple. ;)
That should be my final home after all those blogs expeditions. Apologies for all those inconveniences.
Well, go check it out then if you've got nothing to do.
Bye :)
-Blog Terminated-
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
in love.
To look at Your beauty, leave me with a thousand unspeakable words..
To know that Your love is enveloping around me, makes me want to love You more..
Seeing my own multitudes of sins, makes me feel more than grateful that You had covered me with Your coat of righteousness, and made me beautiful in Your eyes..
And that, You've made a way for me...to have such intimacy with You..
To know how Your heart is stolen when i look at You..
To know that it means so much to You for me to talk to You..
To know that You've adorned me with necklace..
Thank You Jesus for viewing me so high..
Though many times i just can't believe that Your love is just so unconditional..
But it is true..
You capture my heart..
I've been unfaithful, yet You've remain faithful all the time..
Thank You..
May i be a continuous delight to You..
I don't want to be known as anything else..
I'm tired of such titles...
Titles that will snare me away for i'm so weak..
I just want to be a child adoring You...
I just want to be the bride, whom You view preciously of..
I just want to be that person who knows that Your grace is sufficient for me..
I just want to be known as Your precious..
I don't want anything else..but to be able to just be at Your feet..adoring..
I don't want to barge..there's nothing else out there..
Just a fleeting excitement, just temporary joy..
I'm tired of it..
I need not temporary things anymore..
I need not the junks that's offered..
Because i'm tired of all of them..
I'm tired of these things because
I've known and tasted that true filfillment
That true substance from You..
From no one else but You..
Forgive me,
For many times i've chosen the things that would made me die in the inside..
Thank You for always snatching me away, knowing that it would harm me..
I just need permanence..
And only You are permanent...
Nothing else is..
Nothing else will ever be..
And i rejoice in that knowledge..
In peace, may i reside in You..and You in me.
To know that Your love is enveloping around me, makes me want to love You more..
Seeing my own multitudes of sins, makes me feel more than grateful that You had covered me with Your coat of righteousness, and made me beautiful in Your eyes..
And that, You've made a way for me...to have such intimacy with You..
To know how Your heart is stolen when i look at You..
To know that it means so much to You for me to talk to You..
To know that You've adorned me with necklace..
Thank You Jesus for viewing me so high..
Though many times i just can't believe that Your love is just so unconditional..
But it is true..
You capture my heart..
I've been unfaithful, yet You've remain faithful all the time..
Thank You..
May i be a continuous delight to You..
I don't want to be known as anything else..
I'm tired of such titles...
Titles that will snare me away for i'm so weak..
I just want to be a child adoring You...
I just want to be the bride, whom You view preciously of..
I just want to be that person who knows that Your grace is sufficient for me..
I just want to be known as Your precious..
I don't want anything else..but to be able to just be at Your feet..adoring..
I don't want to barge..there's nothing else out there..
Just a fleeting excitement, just temporary joy..
I'm tired of it..
I need not temporary things anymore..
I need not the junks that's offered..
Because i'm tired of all of them..
I'm tired of these things because
I've known and tasted that true filfillment
That true substance from You..
From no one else but You..
Forgive me,
For many times i've chosen the things that would made me die in the inside..
Thank You for always snatching me away, knowing that it would harm me..
I just need permanence..
And only You are permanent...
Nothing else is..
Nothing else will ever be..
And i rejoice in that knowledge..
In peace, may i reside in You..and You in me.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
make those bricks
Spain was awesome this morning! Despite of many discouraging views on how the famous Germany team will trash them in the game, they indeed proved that the "young" is capable of beating the "old"! The once bad team can become a great one too! Great passing of balls, much higher ball possession and a good team work. I hope Spain will win Netherlands in the Final. I don't like Netherlands because their players cheated a lot. I hope the referee will know some personalities of those players first before deciding anything. Anyway, this would be my first time having sleepless nights in 2 rows watching football! I've never done this before but i guess it's worth it especially the match this morning! I'll be supporting Spain all the way. Hehe. Go Spain! Go grab that Cup!
Life has been more of motions or actions lately. Though it's still almost the same in the outward, but it just felt like there was so much of movements in the inside, the ones that are in the atmosphere. It makes life pretty interesting and more fully driven with purpose, i feel. It just feels like filling up a very ravenous, long-slept person. I realize that there are certain things in each person to be dealt or used differently. Everyone is unique in his or her own way. Everyone has a different personality. Everyone has different DNAs and thumb print.
There are sometimes, some place in them that needs a different approach to. Not everyone does things the same way. Not everyone thinks the same way. Not everyone performs the best in such and such way. Everyone is created uniquely and has their own creativity in certain things. Thus, if everyone is to find and know their own strengths and their own weaknesses, and are brave enough to tackle the weaknesses using their strengths, they can perform.
Instead of using someone else's ways of doing things, or rather applying the standard mindset that everyone has, I guess it would be better to be different and to know where you are standing at. Instead of working on how to tiptoe in order to peek a little of what's over the other side of a wall amidst of those 7 feet tall people, it's better to focus on looking down in order to build a firm stairs to see across that wall. To see where is your standard and to work from there.
I always get chilled when i hear of people who have high posts in their own respective career stepping down in order to work on their passion. Instead of spending the rest of their lives with the work that is not suitable for them and that's not according to their personality or likings though they get a high pay, they choose to take the risk to pursue their passions. I hope that i can be able to take my passions into a higher level. Life is interesting. Indeed "You've never really lived until you find something worth dying for." Seen this quote somewhere and i agree, how true it is. :)
Had been trying to recall for this song, and at last i found it today!
A song by Celine Dion, one of my favourite in my primary.
enjoy~
Life has been more of motions or actions lately. Though it's still almost the same in the outward, but it just felt like there was so much of movements in the inside, the ones that are in the atmosphere. It makes life pretty interesting and more fully driven with purpose, i feel. It just feels like filling up a very ravenous, long-slept person. I realize that there are certain things in each person to be dealt or used differently. Everyone is unique in his or her own way. Everyone has a different personality. Everyone has different DNAs and thumb print.
There are sometimes, some place in them that needs a different approach to. Not everyone does things the same way. Not everyone thinks the same way. Not everyone performs the best in such and such way. Everyone is created uniquely and has their own creativity in certain things. Thus, if everyone is to find and know their own strengths and their own weaknesses, and are brave enough to tackle the weaknesses using their strengths, they can perform.
Instead of using someone else's ways of doing things, or rather applying the standard mindset that everyone has, I guess it would be better to be different and to know where you are standing at. Instead of working on how to tiptoe in order to peek a little of what's over the other side of a wall amidst of those 7 feet tall people, it's better to focus on looking down in order to build a firm stairs to see across that wall. To see where is your standard and to work from there.
I always get chilled when i hear of people who have high posts in their own respective career stepping down in order to work on their passion. Instead of spending the rest of their lives with the work that is not suitable for them and that's not according to their personality or likings though they get a high pay, they choose to take the risk to pursue their passions. I hope that i can be able to take my passions into a higher level. Life is interesting. Indeed "You've never really lived until you find something worth dying for." Seen this quote somewhere and i agree, how true it is. :)
Had been trying to recall for this song, and at last i found it today!
A song by Celine Dion, one of my favourite in my primary.
enjoy~
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
language
Recently i'm sort of into Spanish. Had been learning the language for a few days, and i'm loving it more and more. It is interesting! I've always wanted to learn this language since a few years back. I prefer Spanish more than French, though of course i still love French too! I guess i just love the lively culture in those countries which use Spanish as their national language. I feel somehow that liveliness is instilled into the language as well. I would describe it as full of action, spicy, jubilant, and messiness. Hehe.
These few days, it suddenly dawned upon me that language is crucial. Well, more to the ability to express oneself through good usage of language. I'm not really good in languages. I used to try to study Japanese by myself. But half way, i was still not able to grasp that language. In the end, only my brother was able to conquer it though now he'd forgotten half of the language due to lack of usage. Well, Spanish is quite different than Japanese. It is quite similar to English thus that's why i'm brave enough to want to learn it. There are just certain rules that are different than English, but all in all, much much easier than Japanese! I hope! That's what all the people in the forum said and also by what i'd observed. :)
It's one of my dream to be able to learn the language of a place first before going to the place itself. But of course, that's pretty limited. I'm not that talented. Haha. However, i hope that i can for Spanish. There are many countries which use Spanish. So it'd be cool and useful if i can converse a little before traveling there. :)
Till then.
p/s: Semi final netherlands vs uruguay is tomorrow morning! Will be sleeping very early today for the dawn match. ;)
These few days, it suddenly dawned upon me that language is crucial. Well, more to the ability to express oneself through good usage of language. I'm not really good in languages. I used to try to study Japanese by myself. But half way, i was still not able to grasp that language. In the end, only my brother was able to conquer it though now he'd forgotten half of the language due to lack of usage. Well, Spanish is quite different than Japanese. It is quite similar to English thus that's why i'm brave enough to want to learn it. There are just certain rules that are different than English, but all in all, much much easier than Japanese! I hope! That's what all the people in the forum said and also by what i'd observed. :)
It's one of my dream to be able to learn the language of a place first before going to the place itself. But of course, that's pretty limited. I'm not that talented. Haha. However, i hope that i can for Spanish. There are many countries which use Spanish. So it'd be cool and useful if i can converse a little before traveling there. :)
Till then.
p/s: Semi final netherlands vs uruguay is tomorrow morning! Will be sleeping very early today for the dawn match. ;)
Monday, July 5, 2010
up on the mountains
Ok. I decided to change the design of my blog again. I needed something in between of home, travel, and antique. Besides, small font for my posts. I like small fonts. So that lesser people will bother to read it. Haha.
On last Friday, i went to Genting together with my family and grandma. For 3 days and 2 nights, i was there. I didn't really go around the place except to stay in the hotel. The hotel itself was already enough to keep me inside. Uncle blessed us by booking an Oriental Suite in the Highlands Hotel. This hotel is only available for VIP and even in order to use the lift to reach the hotel, residents need the hotel card to move it! It was awesome! At first, he didn't tell us until we went into the room and got shocked over it. Altogether, it was a really pleasant surprise. The hotel consists of 2 storeys. It has a great view of the mountains, the sky and the land around them. I swear i can even see the sea from where i was! Inside, we have 2 large bedrooms with antique designs, sophisticated bathrooms with jacuzzis in it. I bathed in the bathroom while looking over the mountains. Such bliss! There are kitchen, a living room, and also a dining area. I thought i will be uncivilized for 3 days without internet, but lo and behold, they even provide a computer with internet connection. Not only that, i can watch World Cup from the flat screen tv on the comfy cushion. Never could have been better. :)
I thought i would've to spend time sitting in a cafe in First World while all my family members are in casino. At that time, i was truly longing and praying that i would've the chance to behold the beauty of the mountains, the sky, the serenity and the rest of the scenery in that 3 days. Didn't think that it would be fulfilled. It's pretty rare for a Malaysian city girl to have such opportunity, unlike those living in New Zealand, Australia etc. Thus, i'm satisfied. Almost wasn't able to leave the hotel on the last day. How i wish i can do that everyday. I know i can do this next time everyday. For eternity. Beholding Someone even more beautiful than all of these. Then, that would be eternal rest for me. Ahh, this is one of the things that keep me going here.
Apart from all of these, uncle further blessed us with a scrumptious dinner and then gave us tickets to this concert by Richie Jen. I didn't know who was that at first. I thought he was some old singer who is around his 50's. But again a pleasant surprise, i know him. The Momo cha guy. Haha. Enjoyed the concert pretty much. It was almost fully filled! Anyway, later on that night, was able to catch the football match between Spain and Paraguay at 2.30am in the Genting International Showroom! It was splendid. There were 3 screens and the place was quite hyped up with football fans. I could just feel the excitement brewing in the air. :)) The match was pretty interesting. I love to see the passings made by those Spain players and also the teamwork! Of course, the Paraguay's goalkeeper was pretty awesome! I like his action. Haha. So gonna miss this World Cup once it's over. I hope it won't be too soon! Oh, i'm supporting Spain! Lovely name. Hehe.
By the way, for the first time in my life, i entered the casino, by acting as my brother's gf! My previous history of trying to break in to casino when i was in Form 2 kind of made me feel inconfident of going in this time. Well, i guess i've truly grown older. Hehe. Just to have some sightseeing. The place was pretty huge. First impression, Las Vegas with those glittering, get fast money, dreamy feeling. I realised that everyone's expression in the casino was mostly grumpy, serious and sad. Pretty much like machines. Even those card dealers. >.<. The place was very much filled with smokes. I don't know how the card dealers survived inside. Anyway, the best thing inside was that i was able to drink for free. Hehe. Went out after about one hour for fresh air.
All in all, enjoyed myself. And now i'm back to the place where the battle is resumed. :) Adios~
p/s: So anticipating for the world cup semi-finals!
On last Friday, i went to Genting together with my family and grandma. For 3 days and 2 nights, i was there. I didn't really go around the place except to stay in the hotel. The hotel itself was already enough to keep me inside. Uncle blessed us by booking an Oriental Suite in the Highlands Hotel. This hotel is only available for VIP and even in order to use the lift to reach the hotel, residents need the hotel card to move it! It was awesome! At first, he didn't tell us until we went into the room and got shocked over it. Altogether, it was a really pleasant surprise. The hotel consists of 2 storeys. It has a great view of the mountains, the sky and the land around them. I swear i can even see the sea from where i was! Inside, we have 2 large bedrooms with antique designs, sophisticated bathrooms with jacuzzis in it. I bathed in the bathroom while looking over the mountains. Such bliss! There are kitchen, a living room, and also a dining area. I thought i will be uncivilized for 3 days without internet, but lo and behold, they even provide a computer with internet connection. Not only that, i can watch World Cup from the flat screen tv on the comfy cushion. Never could have been better. :)
I thought i would've to spend time sitting in a cafe in First World while all my family members are in casino. At that time, i was truly longing and praying that i would've the chance to behold the beauty of the mountains, the sky, the serenity and the rest of the scenery in that 3 days. Didn't think that it would be fulfilled. It's pretty rare for a Malaysian city girl to have such opportunity, unlike those living in New Zealand, Australia etc. Thus, i'm satisfied. Almost wasn't able to leave the hotel on the last day. How i wish i can do that everyday. I know i can do this next time everyday. For eternity. Beholding Someone even more beautiful than all of these. Then, that would be eternal rest for me. Ahh, this is one of the things that keep me going here.
Apart from all of these, uncle further blessed us with a scrumptious dinner and then gave us tickets to this concert by Richie Jen. I didn't know who was that at first. I thought he was some old singer who is around his 50's. But again a pleasant surprise, i know him. The Momo cha guy. Haha. Enjoyed the concert pretty much. It was almost fully filled! Anyway, later on that night, was able to catch the football match between Spain and Paraguay at 2.30am in the Genting International Showroom! It was splendid. There were 3 screens and the place was quite hyped up with football fans. I could just feel the excitement brewing in the air. :)) The match was pretty interesting. I love to see the passings made by those Spain players and also the teamwork! Of course, the Paraguay's goalkeeper was pretty awesome! I like his action. Haha. So gonna miss this World Cup once it's over. I hope it won't be too soon! Oh, i'm supporting Spain! Lovely name. Hehe.
By the way, for the first time in my life, i entered the casino, by acting as my brother's gf! My previous history of trying to break in to casino when i was in Form 2 kind of made me feel inconfident of going in this time. Well, i guess i've truly grown older. Hehe. Just to have some sightseeing. The place was pretty huge. First impression, Las Vegas with those glittering, get fast money, dreamy feeling. I realised that everyone's expression in the casino was mostly grumpy, serious and sad. Pretty much like machines. Even those card dealers. >.<. The place was very much filled with smokes. I don't know how the card dealers survived inside. Anyway, the best thing inside was that i was able to drink for free. Hehe. Went out after about one hour for fresh air.
All in all, enjoyed myself. And now i'm back to the place where the battle is resumed. :) Adios~
p/s: So anticipating for the world cup semi-finals!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
The coffee meeting
Sometimes i just can't understand why people will want to cover up certain things even though the things are just shouting out so loud without it having to speak. It's like saying "I can't hear any dog's barking" while trying to cover a mad dog who is barking in a mad way with a cloth. It is just ridiculous.
I've always loved to enjoy a cup of coffee while sitting on the side of a road, looking at people walking pass by, with a book on my hand. Don't laugh at me, but I've always wanted to try it in France, especially. Well, i almost fulfilled it today. In the Mines. yeah...
It felt pretty good, of course not as good as i will feel if i'm in France! But, there was a river view from where i was sitting and a big umbrella hovering on top of my head. Sat there for almost 4 hours while reading the Bible, and sipping a cup of Mocha Frappucino. Bliss. hehe. Well, had to catch up with my Bible-reading. Am supposed to read 10 chapters a day together with the rest in mypg, but i'm far behind for almost 6 books!>.<
Anyway, was halfway interrupted at the beginning by a woman monk. She told me many nice words about me at the beginning. After that, she asked me whether i want to buy her amulets in the same time forcing down her bracelet to my wrist. I was quite surprised, as i was halfway thinking about things. After some short convo, she left. And after she left, i watched her going one table by one table asking the same thing. Then, regret crept into my heart. That i'd not asked her why is she doing this and so on and so on, but just told her I'm a Christian and asked her one silly question and just prayed for her after she left.
This led me to realise that, am i getting myself ready for such meeting, knowing what to speak to monks, etc? I was in a stupor at that time. Right before the meeting, i just told God in that place i was sitting that I want to be in reality, to be in the world facing reality, because i felt like in a dream at that time, in such a comfy place.
I guess God showed me through that meeting, this is the reality, and that whether people are ready or willing to pop out of their safe-shyfree bubble and step out.
Often times, i've felt protected and have not the need and urgency to tell people, to tell the truth. Perhaps to protect my skin and to be the good-pleasing girl in everyone's eyes. But, i guess, in the end, i've been a liar instead. Not speaking the truth to them. Later on, i was reading about King Josiah, on how after knowing the laws, he totally stand tall in his belief. To take such drastic action in destroying all the idols etc in a very FIERCE manner. Dumbstruck. Despite of his culture at that time(though he is not following), this King totally smashed away everything even those high places that angered God. Spotless indeed. Clean. Something to really reflect back in my life. Am i trying my best to smash away ALL idols away? Am i taking hold totally and seriously of God's word as it really is, as if my life depended upon it,? As what it says by James, do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
Lord, help me to obey.
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I've always loved to enjoy a cup of coffee while sitting on the side of a road, looking at people walking pass by, with a book on my hand. Don't laugh at me, but I've always wanted to try it in France, especially. Well, i almost fulfilled it today. In the Mines. yeah...
It felt pretty good, of course not as good as i will feel if i'm in France! But, there was a river view from where i was sitting and a big umbrella hovering on top of my head. Sat there for almost 4 hours while reading the Bible, and sipping a cup of Mocha Frappucino. Bliss. hehe. Well, had to catch up with my Bible-reading. Am supposed to read 10 chapters a day together with the rest in mypg, but i'm far behind for almost 6 books!>.<
Anyway, was halfway interrupted at the beginning by a woman monk. She told me many nice words about me at the beginning. After that, she asked me whether i want to buy her amulets in the same time forcing down her bracelet to my wrist. I was quite surprised, as i was halfway thinking about things. After some short convo, she left. And after she left, i watched her going one table by one table asking the same thing. Then, regret crept into my heart. That i'd not asked her why is she doing this and so on and so on, but just told her I'm a Christian and asked her one silly question and just prayed for her after she left.
This led me to realise that, am i getting myself ready for such meeting, knowing what to speak to monks, etc? I was in a stupor at that time. Right before the meeting, i just told God in that place i was sitting that I want to be in reality, to be in the world facing reality, because i felt like in a dream at that time, in such a comfy place.
I guess God showed me through that meeting, this is the reality, and that whether people are ready or willing to pop out of their safe-shyfree bubble and step out.
Often times, i've felt protected and have not the need and urgency to tell people, to tell the truth. Perhaps to protect my skin and to be the good-pleasing girl in everyone's eyes. But, i guess, in the end, i've been a liar instead. Not speaking the truth to them. Later on, i was reading about King Josiah, on how after knowing the laws, he totally stand tall in his belief. To take such drastic action in destroying all the idols etc in a very FIERCE manner. Dumbstruck. Despite of his culture at that time(though he is not following), this King totally smashed away everything even those high places that angered God. Spotless indeed. Clean. Something to really reflect back in my life. Am i trying my best to smash away ALL idols away? Am i taking hold totally and seriously of God's word as it really is, as if my life depended upon it,? As what it says by James, do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
Lord, help me to obey.
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