Thinking

I am just pondering these. Something that has been lying in my heart. Is it all this while?
Thinking of who i will become if i've not chosen that road.
Thinking of who my friends will be if i've chosen the other road.
Thinking of what lies on the road i did not take.
Thinking of if i chose to stay in the path, will i be in that place where im looking at right now from far and will i know the people whom i've met in the road i've taken after i changed the road.
Thinking that whether i'll be willing to come out of my shell if its not the decision made years back.
Thinking of what will i become if i don't know Jesus.
Thinking of what type of girl will i be if i didn't take those roads which i've taken till today.
Thinking of the changes that had happened which had moulded me into who i am today and the unknown changes that are yet to lie in my path to change my route.
Thinking of the many possibilities the future holds.
Thinking of the uncertainty of it too.
Thinking of the many what ifs.
And thinking of the many what will be's.

Will i be the person whom i've pictured in my mind all these while?
Will i be walking the road i've planned to go?
Will i yet to meet people who will change my route tremendously?
Will i be able to make it to the finishing line?
Will i be who i know i am today in the next few years?
Will i yet to see more of unfamiliarities than familiarities?

Yet i'm not the person whom i've pictured before today.
Yet i've not walked the road i've planned to in the yesteryears.
Yet i've met people in unlikely places whom had changed my life in some ways.
Yet i am not who i was.

Every decision made will lead to another whole possibilities.
Every decision made will shape you. 
I've heard, "How do you want your testimony to be?"
How do i want mine?
How do you want yours to be?
It all starts with decisions.


How unfamiliar it is.
Only this one thing i can be certain of.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
And for that, i'm simply assured.