Awaken Me

Forgive me for neglecting Your heart,
Forgive me for neglecting mine.
Forgive me for my busy life,
Forgive me for wasting time,

For I'm dark from working in the vineyard,
but my heart I have forgotten

Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
I want to feel

Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
I want to feel (You)

Take away the dullness
Take away a proneness to boredom
Take away my wandering spirit
And take this wild soul

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Come and hold me like you do

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Capture this imagination
Capture my affections, too

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Come and capture my imagination

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Capture my affections, too

I want You to awaken me
Came awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me 

 

 

I've been busy with so many things lately, either in church and in school, studies. Even when i'm not busy, i'm still busy with my thoughts. Forgive me, Jesus. I've planned to spend more time in the holiday, just me and Him, no petitions, no prayer items, just soaking in Him, be still. I know i longed for it so much, and He want me too. But i failed Him, not enough, not the desired time was spent. How can i not make full use of the time when i'd gotten a holiday? This morning, i spoke to Him. I needed strength so much to face the day. Don't know why, when i am to go to school, i so need Him to help me through the day. It just really feels like i can't go on, i'm not brave enough to do that. Everyday i need Him so much, yet many times i didn't seek Him with my whole heart even i know this is what i need, He is who i needed to face every single day. I know i sound really frail here, but i am frail. I am weak. Without Him, i'm weak. Sometimes it just felt like i'm just visiting His garden, but not staying there, enjoying the garden. To reside in His garden. I want to reside in His garden.

I will seek Him.