Dulling to Fill

i feel.....dulled. today. or rather it's been like this since a few days..... before i realised .... today.
well, dulled as in the right brain of mine is wearing off. the shutting down of my artsy mind if there's still any left. i feel so uncreative now. =(
Must be the pressure or etc etc..hope to regain them back again!

Well, i guess during this uncreative moment, my brain is somehow slowed down a bit. Like it has formed a wider space of privacy. i guess it's a time of refilling for me. a lot of refilling and i hope i don't abandon this... kinda feel good actually to be still. I feel like i'm just so shallow in the Word. There are just so many treasures in the bible which i've yet to discover and to soak in it and to anchor it deep in my heart. And the Word is living, from God!one thing i felt so privilaged today.  thank you God for the hunger You place in my heart. I'd never get that hunger without You helping me. i fear the times when i will be so cold towards Your words, that i will not respond to it or even care. =S God,please awaken my heart back again if i fall into that. Don't let me to go so far away Lord!

felt really heart-touching and speechless to realise again of how great and how far Jesus has gone so that i can have a deeper intimacy with Him. Read the mockery and majesty of Calvary and i felt so much of His love. and how short-sighted and forgetful i am. The pain at the cross, the many expects of the Cross.It spells love. How God loves us. He paid all to redeem me back, to redeem us back. 'the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant seeking beautiful pearls, who when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had and bought it.'[matt 13:45-46]  He sees us as that beautiful pearls. how much we meant to Him? How He sees us as His most beloved bride that we overwhelms Him? We overwhelm Him? yes..thats pretty not a joke.
The only thing i'm required to is to love Him.



I want to take my passion and put it in a bottle
just to break it at your feet
I want to take my affections, put them in a bottle
just to waste at your feet

But like a brand plucked from the fire
I am like a brand plucked from the fire