relieved

He didn't realise. Not much. Though he sometimes do, yet its not enough. But he is glad. That now he knows the complete truth. As to why. The reality has finally sunken in. All those questions are finally answered. Of course, he asked for it. So his wish is granted. Really granted. Though now it looks pretty bad, as in really bad, but he knows there's still a future. A space for correction. Corrections are what he is in need. So many corrections. Mistakes.. Now he wants someone to be there understanding. But he knows he can't have that. Even the closest are shunned away. He knows he has to pay for that mistakes. And to retreat like a caterpillar. Hopefully that caterpillar will turn into a butterfly. Not to a tiny worm instead. Please, not. Captivate that caterpillar. I know he is willing to take those breakings. For only by breaking, he can be filled. I know he is trying hard right now. Or rather releasing himself by being obedient. I'm glad that his wish is granted. Though it hurts. I'm glad that he finally knows the truth. I'm glad that he's left to nothing now except God alone. I hope that he'll make it through.